originally created 4/26/26
College has been tough, for most of it I've been running on empty due to being around a person who was severely draining my energy, as much as I hate to say it. This led me to not take my studies nearly as seriously as I should, and it wasn't until I realized that the negativity that both they and I had wasn't healthy that I was able to get much done. This led to me failing several important tests, but I think I've been able to claw my way back up and hopefully be able to make it through college properly.
It is time to move out of the dorms now, and quite frankly, it's an interesting feeling. I started living on my own for around about a year, returing to family on the weekends, and now it's time to return to the old way of life. I really don't know what to think about that. The friends I've made have already moved out and completed what they came here this year for, and meanwhile I've still got a day left. Even still, I wont be moving out until a few hours after my final.
It's strange to say the least, I've made a couple of friends this year, attended events (though not nearly as many as I feel like I should have), and in general had a really interesting time. Sure, there were ups and downs, times where I wanted to quit and never return to the world of higher education, but ultimately, I feel like things have gone well overall. Most of my classes have been easy enough, and the others i could've done much better if I wasn't preoccupied with other things. I made my YouTube channel, CMMK Live, started updating this website frequently (especially the SIIvaGunner's Dream subsection), and generally have started to find new creative pursuits. I've also been making collages as of recent, and gathering magazines and things of that nature for those, though I only have a couple of these made so far.
I guess I write today because it feels like an era of my life is closing, my first year of college. But, like the legend of the phoenix, all ends with beginings. With this first year of college down, here comes new chances and opportunities. My mom will be moving back to Michigan from Wyoming here in the coming months, so I'll finally be able to see her again. I'd also like to go to the Detroit Institute of Arts here soon and see their collection, because I think ultimately that could be a really interesting thing. A lot of the stuff we covered in Art History refered to the museums locally like the DIA and Toledo Museum of Art, so it would probably give me even more of an appreciation to visit there and see these things in person. Another thing I'd like to have done more of is listen to more music, but I don't really have people who are super into music in my life anymore, atleast beyond one or two specific genres, but I'm sure I could search around for myself. There's bound to be some good stuff out there I just don't know about.
Anyways, that'll be it for today's update. I'm really glad to see that the SiIva subpages have been recieved well, and I can't wait to share them with the larger SG community, but I'm probably only going to do so once I get around to writing about SG10. Since I'm still in the process of writing about Season 5, it'll likely be a while, especially with how I keep getting distracted with sub-pages and the like. Still, I'm very happy I get the opportunity to share my thoughts and feelings about SiIva, especially since I've been following them for so long.